Theo Bee
the gap year (CW: blood)
skin flakes rest in my lap, hands crossed, fingers
twisted left and right and up and forward but never down
twisted left and right and up and forward but never down
if i cannot taste iron after losing blood, it's been too much
and he knows this but i forget
and he knows this but i forget
can i sit here for a minute, just a minute
why would i let you do that
why would i let you do that
i dislocated my ankle, and my shoulder, and my tongue
i've never had wisdom teeth. my father loves this fact.
i've never had wisdom teeth. my father loves this fact.
mother, i wanted to let you know that i'm not a girl
i didn't ask what you thought about it
i didn't ask what you thought about it
i send her a picture of the bruise after the last blood draw
we have the same blood type, only if she didn't lie
we have the same blood type, only if she didn't lie
i hope you had a nice vacation, i loved seeing the photos.
silence.
silence.
my last appointment was thursday but my next one
is may 18th. i can't drive after.
is may 18th. i can't drive after.
we have the same thing. i don't get how you don't understand.
don't pretend you’re anything like me.
don't pretend you’re anything like me.